Louie Will….

-never let herself sad again, again and again……
life is beautiful, life is short, there are so many things worth thinking and doing, sometimes will get frustrated will get hurt but dont need to think about it all the time…will keep myself busy and divert my energy into something productive
-will continue to love myself more
-will continue to know and discover myself
-will try to be nice to guys, listen to them, somehow be sympathetic and will not be too straightforward
-my heart is never like a stone…most of them misinterpret me….will try to be expressive and sweet
-will love my family more..my mother…..my grandmother…..
-will never be afraid to anyone anymore..
-will never waste time anymore…….
-will continue discovering my potentials…….god gave me so many gifts that I havent opened yet…
-will try to act mature now………

Just wondering

And I wonder if I ever cross your mind…For me it happens all the time…

My First Step to the Land of Opportunity

I am finally here in the US of A. Cant imagine Im having my first step to the famous land what they so called “The Land of Opportunity”. Our point of entry is in Seattle. Its nice meeting Filipino people in the airport, they helped us hanggang magkanda ligaw ligaw kame paghahanap sa plane namin to Denver..Layo we have to ride in a train to get there..Our flight got delayed in Japan so we were in a hurry and we were blessed to make it.
I thought magstay pa kame sa Seattle for a while because of the misconnected flight.

We landed at 430pm in Denver. Ganito pala d2. Almost all Whites are good looking lalo na ung mga kids, super cute. I wish I can have one like them..Our two local IT guys fetch us to Boulder.They seem to be nice and cute (cute-thats for sure, Zac Efron ikaw ba yan lol).  Brainbleed na ako kakaEnglish hehehe.What I like about them is that they are polite when they dont understand what you’re saying..So I kinda feel at ease to revised my sentence the way they could understand what I would like to tell them. Its already 7pm but it looks like 4pm in Manila, the sun is still up. Kakaiba pala d2, they say ganito daw d2 kapag summer. Walang masyadong tao d2 sa Boulder. No heavy traffic, I rarely saw people walking on the street.This place is so quiet. And even here in the hotel where we are staying at. Dalawa na nga lang kame pinaghiwalay pa kame ng room huhu..Its kinda creepy..so quiet..The bed is for two, the comfort room is big, (asar lang walang tabo), I have my kitchen (ref, microwave, stove) and a living room (parang SM lang you got it all!) I am too blessed to have all of these (parang gusto ko ng maniwala sa Ninang ko..) What I know for sure is that at the moment is I love my Mother, I really do..Im a good girl now na sa kanya.

Anyways, Chad treat us dinner in Old Chicago. The food is pretty good. I ordered traditional lasagna, sobrang dami ng food,the serving is for two..Ganito daw talaga d2, no wonder why most of the Americans are big. I probably gain weight here..Huh I only ate half of it.Im already full..Buti na lang pede itake home.

Its now 2:55 in the morning..I got awake, I cant get a deep sleep. Whats going to happen later? Im gonna see them in person. Whoa..Calm down Louie.. everything will gonna be alright. I need to sleep again, I still have two hours to rest. Good mornyt! 

Akala Ko

Kaya ko bang magbf na me anak na sa iba…..?? I thought ok na pero inde pala. Hays no luck talaga..coke zero going down down down……..

Panalangin

I miss our conversations

I’d like to talk to someone special to me but he is not online..
Im thinking if I will text him but Im undecided..
So I flip a coin to answer all my question..

If it lands on head it means YES
If it lands on tails it means NO

Should I text him now?  NO (sad)
Is he mad or lonely right now? NO (Ok, Im feeling he is)
Will he be happy or kilig if I text him? YES  (yahooO! with matching talon)
Last chance, Should I text him now? No (again? la talaga..kainis)

Deep sigh..Im confused..Baka me special someone na xa..huhu
Its too late..Why should I always initiate the conversation kase??…dapat xa xa.. Louie, the answer is simple hes not interested..

"One Step At A Time"

Hurry up and wait
So close, but so far away
Everything that you’ve always dreamed of
Close enough for you to taste
But you just can’t touch

You wanna show the world, but no one knows your name yet
Wonder when and where and how you’re gonna make it
You know you can if you get the chance
In your face as the door keeps slamming
Now you’re feeling more and more frustrated
And you’re getting all kind of impatient waiting

[Chorus:]
We live and we learn to take
One step at a time
There’s no need to rush
It’s like learning to fly
Or falling in love
It’s gonna happen and it’s
Supposed to happen and we
Find the reasons why
One step at a time

You believe and you doubt
You’re confused, you got it all figured out
Everything that you always wished for
Could be yours, should be yours, would be yours
If they only knew

You wanna show the world, but no one knows your name yet
Wonder when and where and how you’re gonna make it
You know you can if you get the chance
In your face as the door keeps slamming
Now you’re feeling more and more frustrated
And you’re getting all kind of impatient waiting

[Chorus]

When you can’t wait any longer
But there’s no end in sight
when you need to find the strength
It’s your faith that makes you stronger
The only way you get there
Is one step at a time

Pano nga ba ang proseso ng eleksyon ngayong 2010 & what is your POV about it?

Ang tatay ko ay nagtatrabaho sa COMELEC at sa tuwing eleksyon I cant keep myself to be nervous. Mainit ang eleksyon sa lugar namin and it so dangerous for them lalo na when they have to bring the official ballots to the provincial board of canvassers. Now with the new process, computerized election I am hoping that this will be less stressful and safer to all especially for those who are responsible for processing clean election . Pero pano nga ba to? Here, me isang blog where we can refer to.

 http://paanoba.blogspot.com/2009/12/paano-nga-ba-ang-proseso-ng-pagboto-sa.html

For me the best part of the process is that the data can be transmitted via satellite. I hope and pray that all the systems engineers will be able to encapsulate and secure the data. I hope and pray that these are the persons that are technically ready for this implementation. In my own point of view, I am in favor of election automation but this requires more preparation. Mas maganda siguro kung sa local election muna na implement. Anyways, one month na lang at eleksyon..Lord please help all the Filipinos to choose the right person to vote..Tama na ang corruption. Oras na para umunlad ang Pilipinas. Its time to rise again!

MMI’s gift

 Someone for our previous group went to Boulder Colorado last month. She just arrived last Monday and she brought some stuffs given by our IT Team in Boulder (Colorado Bear, Keychain, mug and the postcard)/ What I like the most is the bear, its so cute hehe…and of course the message from our team in the Postcard..

Thank you guys..I appreciate it..

MEeT mY FrIeNdS

Nagkitakita ulet kame ng mga friends ko sa Balsa sa Niyugan noong Sabado, March 6, 2010. As usual we chose this place because aside sa masarap mga food nila, convenient na yung place e mura pa..yun nga lang after ng megachikahan at tawanan…puro kagat na kame ng lamok..Stagnant kase ung water kaya prone sa mosquito…Pero oks narin pede ka naman humingi ng katol at marami naman ang mga kampon ni lizardo..diskartehan mo na lang wag magshorts or miniskirt at magdala ka ng pamaypay..

I missed my friends…they were my classmates in HighSchool..it feels so good when I’m with them.. Sumakit na naman ang tiyan namin ke Longnek kakatawa..kapag to ang bumanat nakupo..mangangawit ang panga mo..Of course Im happy kase dumating si Bitoy, ang bespren kong inde ako bespren..hehe Yun nga lang ang plano kong i-set-up siya with MR A. ay napurnada..me gf na pala xa at kasama nia pa..I thought she will be dismayed but it turn out to be fun moment haha..Galing magdala at nakakatawa talaga.. Si Bitoy talaga..kering keri.. ) idoL!

Andyan din si Madam at si Joy..”the new couple”..we were teasing them that they came from City Hall signed the contract of LOVE..yih!..pareho ba namang nakapormal at nakawhite..Blooming si Madam…iba talaga kapag in love..

Si Mr A–Natuwa naman ako, at last me girlfriend na siya..We are all happy for him..Kase late bloomer din toh eh hihihi…shhhhhhh…The girl is so tahimik, nashock ata sa ingay namin.. Mr A..looks pretty handsome..well taken care of her GF yih.. )

Si Shawi andyan din…she is getting prettier and prettier…and prettier..Parang inde 27 years old ah..! Ganun ba talaga kapag ikakasal na???? Yih..Nacurious naman ako sa beauty regimen nia..maxadong validosa.. She lose weigth too..Balance..

Its almost 2am na..ang dami pa naming pinagkwekwentuhan..kung inde pa nagpatay ng ilaw sila Kuya inde pa kame
aalis sa Balsa..Parting time na ulet..:( Gusto ko pa sanang gumala..kaso baka kalabisan na ..

I missed them so much…sana marami pang next time in the future..I miss you guys..!

dont go there

Max Caloocan sucks..they dont have honest employees..Don’t go there!

You Brighten Up My Day!

Sobrang lungkot ko kaninang umaga sa office..feeling ko pinagsakluban ako ng langit at lupa..d nga true true…me time sa buhay natin d ba na ganun?? what I did to ease my loneliness I download the book of Mark Twain…I was reading “The Adventure of Tom Sawyer” para matawa ako ng konti . Nasa bukana pa lang ako ng libro,  and then etoh na…puff!..me dumaan and feeling ko me nakatingin saken..paglingon ko Holycow!..ung crush ko!!! what the hell is he doing here??? ang alam ko sa Ortigas xa nakabase.. haha!…We stared to each other for just a few seconds..whoa!…kilig naman ako..hehe..si Lord talaga mapagbiro…nkita cguro ng mga angels ko how gloomy am I..kaya they find a way to make me smile…thank you naman…He brightens my day, really!!..mas guwapo pala xa kapag mas malapit and kapag all black ung hair… I saw this guy when we had our Christmas party last Dec 19, 2009..He was playing the organ well (not some sort of body organ ha..hmpp) keyboards po..He is part of the ITSS band which I found so good in music..galing! Y-o-u..yes You…Im one of your fan..hehe..Thanks for brightening my day…-louie here..

Yeah..you bleed just to know your alive..

Pede bang umiyak? I just discovered something while Im idle on my work. I’m close to tears but Im holding it back..Im not suppose to be sad but I can’t smile. I don’t know what to feel..I cant feel any pinch in my heart but Im teary and full of sighs. Damn this heart of mine!

Focus

I am beginning to know the meaning of the word FOCUS.

Oct 6, 2009 -This is the best day of this year for me, so far.Really..

I was determined to make it and luckily I passed the Microsoft Certification exam with a score of 1000/1000. I am now considered as MCP. Yipeee..:)

I focus on reviewing stuffs on how to troubleshoot Microsoft applications. I disciplined myself to answer and read all the questions from the reviewer that I have. I made sure that I understand it. I focus on what I am doing. I never allowed myself to be distracted by anything or anyone. I hate the world, im on angry mode, I hate guys. Maybe that contributes as well why I was able to focus on this study. Sadly that is how I feel..sorry dont be affected.

While studying I learned a shit load of stuff I never knew was possible in Windows XP. It is fun reading, most of my reactions are “ahhh… ok..hehe”. This is a big help to me as I was able to apply everything that I learned on my job.

Though it was considered among the easiest Microsoft Certification exams, I am very fulfilled to the result. I hope I can have millions of event like this in my life..

Sept 26, 2009

We were very lucky that typhoon Ondoy did not hit the central part of Manila. We experienced flood but it was just ankle deep, fortunately the water was not able to reach our home. The only problem that I had during that time is the power oulet that burst. We also heard pop sounds from the electrical wirings mapped on the ceiling from our house to the next apartment. We were very afraid that it might cause fire so we have to turned off the switch. For this reason, I was not too aware of what is really happening to the other part of Metro Manila.
(no TV, no computer, no internet, no cellphone) There was a black out on Saturday night till Sunday, electricity power restored I believe Sun afternoon. I thought it was just all rumors and exaggerated stories but not until I saw the videos, watched news and saw pictures. It was very threatening. The downpour from the tropical storm Ondoy brought us devastation. It fills me with great sadness looking at the survivors, victims and the damaged houses and infrastuctures.

I am seriously thankful that this happened during the day and on weekend. If the flood came out when we were at work or while we were sleeping, it could have been worse.

This tragedy is a reminder to us that the value of things cant replace the value of human kind. Things that are washed away by floods can be replaced but not our beloved ones. Let us express our love to our family while they are still there because we may not know when they will be gone. For those survivors, let us be thankful that we are still alive. They said that broken pieces is a beautiful mosaic, let us look on the brighter side. We may had suffered this tragic events, we learned lots of things in life, somehow better future is waiting.

Go Away

Nakakapod na..masakit na ang ulo ko..till now naiisip parin kita…bakit? bakit? bakit? Kala ko OK na pero inde pa pala..Inde na ko makapagfocus sa ginagawa ko.. GO Away ok? and I will be fine….

Clumsy Me…

I’ve never been clumsy before, i used to be coordinated but for these past few days, i constantly drop things easily without me knowing. Could it be a sign of aging? Do I need to go consult with the optalmologist? My auntie reminds me not to slam the door but I’ve done that repeatedly. What’s with my right hand? The push seems to be light but the force is too strong. Yesteday i cant open the bottle of a paste shrimp with my bare hands, i hit its cap with a spoon to loosen but the bottle broke. Today I pick the bottle of vinegar on the tray but the bottle of ketchup jump with it so fast that i was not able to catch it. It fell to the plate that I about to use, both were broken..urghh..What is happening?? I ate dinner then slice of meat spill down.

Is somebody thinking me? Is it related with my broken heart..hehe? Errr, things just move on their own..

A poem from my long time crush…. :)

L-end this single opportunity
O-ver all barriers and doubts in your eyes that I see
U-ntie the rope of pain in my loving weary heart
I-mprison every annoyance before we depart
E-very thing about you is just so fine

A-ngelic lovely face beautiful and divine
N-eed your answer as much as ………..
N-ever wanted to love but I do………..

My day is not complete without coffee…….

Recently, I noticed that I became addicted to coffee. Drinking coffee is my morning routine in the office. I cant do anything else to raise my energy level. Because I am working on graveyard shift I need to keep myself awake. I am becoming dependent to it. I know it is not a good habit because coffee contains too much caffein that is bad for our health. I just can’t put it away this time. Coffee is my life line..

Why Am I Blessed?

I feel I dont deserve the blessings that you have given me but thank you so much….